I'm sorry, I love you.

Mr Hasnul has to attend a meeting tomorrow at KL. It was a last minute invitation. Macam biasa, dia ajak saya ikut.. School will start on 1st January,so I am available IF I want to go with him. Since we got no suitable car (apparently, Viva wasn't suitable for a long distance journey) we had decided to take a flight. I was like, "Ohh.bestnya naik flight Qayyim pun dah besar sekarang..he will surely enjoy his flight ride..bla..bla..bla.."

Tapiii..bila check website nak beli ticket..tak ada langsung waktu yang sesuai. Be it MAS, Air Asia ataupun Fireflyz. Harga pun mahal sangat. Benci. Benci. Benci

Ada jugak flight malam, tapi Mr Hasnul taknak. Dia cakap lewat sangat. So Mr Hasnul cakap dia nak drive, nak pinjam kereta Abah. Hati saya terus rasa 'semacam' je bila cakap nak naik kereta pergi KL.huhu

I am not as brave as you are. I still can't get over my trauma.  I can't imagine how my entire 5 hours journey will be. I can't endure the fear. I can't act as normal. So I chose not to go this time.

I'm so sorry darling.  How I wish you understand how I feel. This is hard for me. I need a longer time to heal myself.

Seriously, I am truly sorry..

*heartbreaking.huhu*

Ya Allah..Kau selamatkan perjalanan suamiku. Kau lindungilah Dia sebaik-baiknya. Kau mudahkan perjalannya. Kau lapangkanlah hati kami. Limpahkan kami ketenangan dan rahmatmu.Ya Muhaimin. Ya Rahmaan. Ya Rahiim.

*sobs*